Hypothetically Hypothetical

Hypothetically, I may or may not have a job. I feel like that sentence covers my butt enough. It’s almost like saying “I may or may have a job, maybe. This could also be pretend.”

That is part of my absence from this site for the last week and counting. It’s odd because I don’t have a lack of content pulsing through me, I just have a lack of TIME right now. That’s all time that’ll come back to me, as I learn to readjust. Readjusting is something I’m an old hand at although my age might indicate differently.

The rest of the stuff is all personal. Not “personal” as in “not going to make it to the blog”, but personal as in I think less dust needs to be in the air for me to throw it all out here. I’m totally ok, so that’s the important part. The boys, being even more important than I, are happy and healthy and loved. We will always do our best to insure those things.

The hypothetical job would mean a few things for me. Number 1, a real job. As in, throwing myself into the community and writing till my fingers want to fall off. That? Is what I need. If I am going to be in Montgomery, I might as well soak up every single thing it has to offer. This job opportunity shoves me right into that.

It also means a real paycheck, with real health insurance and the opportunity to keep my children. Yes, that last part hints at what is going on (in part). Without this job, I’ve been warned that I might lose them if in court. As mothers, and sisters, and friends, and humans - you all have some grasp of what that would mean. For me? It’s losing my life. My boys are my everything.

On another level, this job would mean I’d finally use my skills at their rawest level. A “break it down and start from scratch” experience. I think those are what good writers are made of. The times where you are asked to take a small piece of your current skill, and transform it, incorporate it, and mold it to what is required are those challenges that make you better.

Needless to say, I’m really excited if this hypothetical situation goes well. You know, if it’s not all pretend.